Une Enfant Terrible

Happiness is like time and space--we make and measure it ourselves; it is as fancy, as big, as little, as you please; just a thing of contrasts and comparisons. - georges de maurier

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so Arielle, how did you spend your weekend?

i spent it in the dark with a large man and an even bigger..... opinion. :-)

seriously, i spent the entire day yesterday, ok well it was more like 5.5 hours but who's counting? in a darkened theatre with this guy Mike Daisey -- http://www.mikedaisey.com/.

He covered 4 men of mythological magnificence in 4 solo monologues in his show called Great Men of Genius (or GMOG -- rawr!!) He topples and tussles with the personalities of Brecht, Barnum, Tesla and utlimately Hubbard, yes the man behind dianetics. i am not a moonlighting theatre reviewer i am merely an amused and grateful audience member.

Mike is hilarious in a way that I like. He doesn't just make profound observations about these dead famous guys, he makes profound observations about them as they relate to *him*, Mr. Mike Daisey, the Duke of Dorky. Mike is a frankenstein of comedy himself weaving in Eddie Izzard'ish snarky remarks with Lewis Black's ranting and spitting. Pay particular attention to his apt descriptions of state fairs, science fairs, Star Trek, and ears on a string.

Don't trust me. Don't believe me. Don't take my word for it. Take it in for yourself. Check out his act at Berkeley Rep (http://www.berkeleyrep.org/ticketing/calendar/index.aspx). You'll get to see them parsed and spaced neatly over 4 days instead of smooshed into one crazy day in the dark.

So I've decided to occupy whoever is reading this with weekly brain teasers. Post your responses if you think you've got the correct answer. Since this is week one I'm going to give you an easy one.

WEEK #1:
The word linger can be found in consecutive letter of the name of a well known city and its country - what is it?

If you're on tribe then feel free to post your response there or here or both. if you're not on tribe but want to be friends with me there you'll find me under the handle ..::rel::.. yes that is a lot of punctuation but doesn't it look pretty?

I am desperately seeking models for tomorrow's Hotties of Harm Reduction photo shoot. We do not have enough to fulfill the photographer's vision of "AN Army of Queers". We have 6 confirmed people, hardly enough to even ruffle the feathers of seasons revolutionaries.

does anyone else know anyone else who'd be willing to show up at 6AM in the name of harm reduction and clean needle exchange? if so please tell them about this.

here's what i posted on tribe:
Will You Model for me PLEASE?! friends only Sat, July 29, 2006 - 2:10 PM
Model for me and the calendar I am working on.

The calendar is called the Hotties of Harm Reduction. It is a fundraiser for clean needle exchange and HIV reduction strategies here in the city. You can read more about it here: www.hottiesofharmreduction.org/

The plan is to have an "army" of folks marching up Castro tomorrow morning at 6am (yes that is in the am but is before the marathon and before Dore Alley!). Folks would be dressed in tighy whiteys, combat boots and aviator sunglasses (we will provide if you don't have said items!). With the people assembled in military formation the Castro theatre marquee in the background will display the message "CLEAN NEEDLES SAVE LIVES". No one will be completely naked. All body shapes are welcome and DESIRED. Electrical tape will be provided to cover exposed bits etc.

I know that this is last minute. I know that this is a risque and strange request. I know it is super early. I know that I am doing this in a non-personal manner. I know all of these things and yet I am asking for your help to make this shot a really amazing message. Please email me and tell me the news - be it yes, no, maybe or you bloody insane lady go back to smoking crack. I am prepared for the inevitable a rejection from you all but maybe one or two of you will surprise and delight me and actually show up. a grrl can dream right?

Feel free to pass this request on or re-post it elsewhere (just NOT craigslist, i beseech you!) to people you think would be supportive of such a fundraiser.

thank you for reading this
many hugs
arielle

went here http://www.longnow.org/projects/seminars/ last night and enjoyed it immensely.

watching these 2 personal favorite iconic people made my little geek heart go pitter and pat.

a couple of great quotes:
B.E. :: "... music as a painting not a narrative piece... like watching a flowing river..."

B.E. :: " .. culture is everything that you don't have to do, like choosing to style your hair in a certain way... what would it be like to be a person with hair like that? ... the act of surrender is agreeing to live life under those values..."

W.W. :: on game design "... like a japanese zen garden, your garden is not complete until you cannot remove anything else."

i have finally come home after a whirlwind 24 hours.

i have been working on a 48 movie project with Val (childewolfe) and friends. The name of the project is called Somnus, latin, ironically for sleep.

we have worked non stop for the last 36 hours to write, shoot and edit the 4 - 7 minute piece. Val (childewolfe) and company are still hard at work doing the post-production/editing. it was great fun to romp through Stern Grove today and be a production assistant/slate grrl. making a movie is hard work and but the end product is really going to be an amazing piece.

you can see it this thursday night at Studio Z. learn more here: Tied to the Mast Productions
www.tiedtothemast.com

SCREENING DETAILS

Tuesday through Thursday, June 27, 28, and 29
Screenings are at the Roxie Cinema http://www.roxie.com
3117 16th Street (at Valencia Street) in San Francisco's Mission district

NOTE: Each night's whole set of films shows TWICE: First show at 7:00, the 2nd at 9:30

See you at the show!

This birthday girl is full and happy - just got home from a delicious birthday dinner with Tiffany and her mom. Chicken in hollandaise with home made biscuits and salad with bleu cheese vinaigrette. Birthday cake was super yummy! Strawberry custard shortcake ^_^

I have accumulated another under the sun and I am grateful to be here in my new place in the fog of San Francisco. I actually made a wish when I was small to be here and live and now the wish has come true. See what happens when you blow out your candles? Seriously though it is a good time for me with several birthday celebrations this week I'm sure it'll be a fun birthday week with at least two cakes that I know of ^_^

with the great migration in full swing i am computerless for the next few days. it is here somewhere in a box... using one of John's old machines now for all of my computing needs.
..::looks around wistfully::..

trystin, the cat, is still here in Tiburon but my stuff is in the city. he won't move until sunday when he's been completely removed of his residents, err fleas.

watching the fog rolling in across the golden gate, being sucked into the central valley and hotter points east. i am going to miss this.

i am going to miss the crickets at night, the ferraris racing down my street and andre agassi who lives up the street. albeit i've never actually seen him since moving here but that doesn't mean i won't miss him ^_^

i wish my camera wasn't packed, the city looks like its resting on a puff of a cloud... truly amazing

time to leave, must get a root canal. how much more fun can one gal have in a day?! ^_^

the time has come to say goodbye to fair Tiburon and this weekend is when the great migration becomes final.

it feels strange to leave a place after being there for 2 years. for a chameleon like me, ever-adapting and ever-shifting, it is a strange sensation to feel a sense of grieving for my old home and stability. at the core lies the premise and self-realization that i am not nearly as mutable or in love with change as I used to be (or thought i was ^_^)

a new door opening into a new apartment and a new chapter... i wonder what items i'll bring that i should i leave in the dumpster? i can see myself now in the future looking back to now and seeing the bundle of nerves that is my current state of mind. my future self is envious of this current self - envious of the opportunity and the space, the uncluttered and yet messy life.

waiting on a hardware update at work to allow me to get my job done. it is so stunning how much time is lost while waiting for versions to update and video cards to have the right drivers. the job is fine apart from the technical difficulties. hopefully we'll make the deadline without staying up till dawn.

John & I returned late from our vacation to Vancouver. We boarded the cruise ship last Thursday and set sail for Canada that afternoon. We spent 3 wonderful days at sea, lulled and rocked by the currents.

Vancouver was amazing!!! The sun was out and not a cloud in the sky...too glorious. We walked all over the city acquainting ourselves with the kinkier and more outrageous shops along Davie Street (think Castro & Haight Street but much cleaner).

We crashed that night and woke up at 4:30 on Monday to board a bus from Vancouver to Seattle. The trip was uneventful if not blurry through my sleep phased eyes. We got on an Amtrak train in Seattle at 10:30 and were off to Emeryville. Taking a train was incredibly delightful... seeing so much of the pacific northwest from the privacy and quiet of our own little cabin was absolutely perfect.

Too tired right now but more details (and pics!) to come in the next few days

now when i am feeling low and slimy and my stomach hurts i found this Rumi poem on tribe from someone who found it in the collection translated by Coleman Barks:

Today, like every other day, we wake up empty
and frightened. Don't open the door to the study
and begin reading. Take down a musical instrument.

Let the beauty we love be what we do.
There are hundreds of ways to kneel and kiss the ground.

Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing,
there is a field. I'll meet you there.

When the soul lies down in that grass,
the world is too full to talk about.
Ideas, language, even the phrase each other
doesn't make any sense.

The breeze at dawn has secrets to tell you.
Don't go back to sleep.
You must ask for what you really want.
Don't go back to sleep.
People are going back and forth across the doorsill
where the two worlds touch.
The door is round and open.
Don't go back to sleep.

I would love to kiss you.
The price of kissing is your life.

Now my loving is running to my life shouting,
What a bargain, let's buy it.

Daylight, full of small dancing particles
and the one great turning, our souls
are dancing with you, without feet, they dance.
Can you see them when I whisper in your ear?

They try to say what you are, spiritual or sexual?
They wonder about Solomon and all his wives.

In the body of the world, they say, there is a soul
and you are that.

But we have ways within each other
that will never be said by anyone.
Come to the orchard in Spring.
There is light and wine, and sweethearts in the pomegranate flowers.

If you do not come, these do not matter.
If you do come, these do not matter.

John is moving out on May 15th
i am moving i don't know when
i need to find a place in the city
no more suburbia please

i think i have too much crap for a studio but i'd be willing to try it.
SO......
if anyone knows of a super cool place studio or 1 bedroom please pass the info along

you know you're at your parent's house when the entertainment of the evening is sitting around and watching super 8 and 16 mm films of yourself as a child.

However i now have evidence of the following truths of myself:

- my oral fixation started at the age of 16 months when i started putting spoons, toes, chocolate cake and other random items into my mouth
- that yes i really did wear a sweater vest that had a picture of Ernie's face (from Bert & Ernie) on it
- that one of my favorite toys was a Heinz ketchup bottle that was actually a little scooter thingy
- that something happened between the time i was born into the world and turning age 3 that profoundly changed me

Watching the movies i could see the difference in my smile, my eyes reflected something, some sort of sadness or hurt and even then on the grainy films of 31 years ago i could see it.

happiness and light as the sun comes back.
what a lift from the dreary heaviness of the past few days/weeks/months...

heading back east to my parents place this weekend so i'll have some stories from the dysfunctional family of the year for you soon.

enjoy the light even if you hate the sun ;-)

today is sad as I watch the demise of my relationship with John. Some of the pain is due to me and my own issues. My ostrich syndrome hit me hard and our relationship has suffered because of it.

pain self-loathing pain crying pain beat head against the wall

Simply could not resist this... a tip of the fedora to the geek i ganked it from (someone here in some gamer community)

i changed the look of my journal... i feel so damn creative

i changed my job... i am now working at Black Point Studios as an assistant producer

they make video games, do movie work and even a kids show in germany!

i am excited even though i am damp, from the neverending rain

time to change the color of my hair methinks